“Some problems don’t get solved,” Gar says and he takes a drink. “I’m old
enough to send into a fight against psychos but I’m not old enough for a
beer.”
The last straw had been being treated like a child.
“Dude, I’m not saying that,” Tommy says, hands up defensively. “I’m saying getting wasted doesn’t make talking to people you need to talk to easier. Usually it just gets people taking swings and hurting other people. Drinking is better for celebration. Or to relax.”
"I didn't want to talk to him in the first place, not about all the stuff he doesn't know yet. He doesn't need to know and I didn't... I can't talk about all of that... After everything he just made me feel small."
It's more than just what Cadmus did.
"I just don't want to feel all of this," and he still does even if he's not telling Dick about it. The pain, the grief, the trauma? The trauma that's older than Titan Tower, all of it. He holds it all in and he's tired of feeling.
And he hates that he feels that way -- that he can't just shrug and smile and act like himself. "Okay?"
"I know," Tommy assures him. "I don't think I'm a very good person. I know I have to keep smiling or my family is going to be worried. And my team is going to judge me. You do what you can, to get them to put up with you."
And sometimes that means lying to and about yourself.
Gar does follow and really he's feeling a little lighter but drinking is definitely going to aid in that further. He's still pretty sure about everything that'd happened, the confession, the fight with Dick? It was all shitty.
"Thank you," Gar says softly. And maybe sometime talking would be what he felt like he needed. "I think drinking and sparring is what I need right now though, you know?"
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Date: 2020-03-24 07:35 pm (UTC)“Why not?” Gar looks vaguely annoyed at Tommy for even saying that but he takes the vodka and opens it up as he starts to pace.
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Date: 2020-03-24 07:37 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-03-24 07:39 pm (UTC)“Some problems don’t get solved,” Gar says and he takes a drink. “I’m old enough to send into a fight against psychos but I’m not old enough for a beer.”
The last straw had been being treated like a child.
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Date: 2020-03-24 07:40 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-03-24 07:59 pm (UTC)It's more than just what Cadmus did.
"I just don't want to feel all of this," and he still does even if he's not telling Dick about it. The pain, the grief, the trauma? The trauma that's older than Titan Tower, all of it. He holds it all in and he's tired of feeling.
And he hates that he feels that way -- that he can't just shrug and smile and act like himself. "Okay?"
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Date: 2020-03-26 01:49 am (UTC)That was who he was on his team. Always smiling, always laughing, trying to make sure people LIKE him.
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Date: 2020-04-22 03:10 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-04-22 05:23 am (UTC)And sometimes that means lying to and about yourself.
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Date: 2020-04-23 12:11 am (UTC)"I know you're a good person, though," he has to say but he understands feeling like you're not. That's the whole thing here isn't it.
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Date: 2020-04-23 12:40 am (UTC)They hate themselves and they don't believe it, but why can't it just be true?
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Date: 2020-04-26 08:14 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-04-26 10:34 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-05-04 07:02 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2020-05-05 11:26 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-05-06 06:08 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2020-05-06 10:11 pm (UTC)"Yeah. I'll go easy on your. Keep it to normal speeds as much as I can."
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Date: 2020-05-14 09:33 pm (UTC)"Thank you."
ftb here?
Date: 2020-05-15 01:41 am (UTC)And it really is that simple.